blank..dun0 h0w to start..daR's having holidae..havE been enj0ying h0lidaes with him..din wk for long le..ever since may??keep giving myself excuse..lazing around..dun like wk..but tot abt it..n0 matter how..dun like also muz drag go wk..no wk no $$..p00r parents..wonder how they struggle thru all this yrs..but n0t gona taLk abt b0ring j0b nw..hmm..all al0ng i tot i trusted dar dar..but an incident make me blank..lots of tots..in the mid of the holidae..his frens ask him out for gathering..supposingly tot tat he was going bbq..i dun mind him going out with his fren...but suddenly he told me he going pub..my heart paused..y..i also dun0..mayb the environment..mayb the ppl dere..make me feel unez..??was stopping him..hope he wont go..but at last he went..he told me is not those complicated pub..nt much ppl..i believe he wont betray my trust..but i suppose is my own problem..i like to run my tot wilds..believeing him..but juz couldnt stop the tots frm running..at first i tot i was angry with him coz previously he stopped me..frm going such places but he was going himself..but ltr i realised it issnt..i also dun0 wad;s the problem..juz feel heart unez..uncomfortable..like a big big stone pressing on my heart..cant breathe well..he told me he drank..i feel he has changed??perhaps to him..he din..but i juz feel so??mayb i have so mani feelings coz i feel tat i'm abt to lose him??i dun0 wad's into me..suffering frm depression??also..always he uses his ph0ne..msg or call..i wanted to ask..but was hoping he auto tell me??i became very suspicious over minor thing..i hate myself..wad's happening??helpz......perhaps i have a bad incident b4..so i gt the shadow..felt scared..= ( tears filling my everydae..
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